Wowww

You people still log on to this shit huh?

Fuck it's been a while.

Life has changed, a lot.

Highschool has turned me into a fucking monster.

This shadow of a person that thinks he has to act just how people expect him to.

Friends, I got'em

Girls, ain't no problem

Haters by the dozens

and I couldn't give a fuck.

People tell me I should be more sensitive,

but honestly kids need to just grow up.

I've seen ridiculous shit occur

Things that never had to happen but did because someone needed attention

I used to be wicked angry,

now I'm not mad anymore

I just don't care.

and I think that pisses people off more than when I was mad all the time.

Because honestly, little affects me.

I thought highschool was going to tear my life apart,

and it kind of did

I lost most of my old friends and now have new ones

and I hate to say it but it's because I get along with these kids a lot better than my old friends

It's not anyone's fault it's just how it is.

That's another thing, I accept that the past is the past and there's not a fucking thing we can do about it.

Apparently that idea is hard to explain to people.

Also I feel like I'm going insane just about everyday.

Because I think of something, then say it, then everyone is like that's stupid.

two months later someone else thinks of it and they're a fucking profit.

Whatever though it's all good.

^ all thanks to my new pal^

Wow

I thought you were better than that.

Girls

Confuse the Fuck out of me.

And I don't like it.

Why can't I let myself be happy?

Or find a girl I can stand to be with without thinking I'm going to mess up?

I need that one girl that will keep me looking ahead, not twards these distractions.

A girl that knows when to let me go with Sunny to do something St00pid.

but also knows how to keep me safe when I'm too dumb.

I wish I had Megan Foxes number.

I've been replaced.

I should've Deleted this a long time ago.

...I'm fine

I'm okay

I'm all good

I'm great

I'm just dandy

I am such a fucking liar.

But I'm done caring.

So have a nice life without me.

The Sadness Will Never End.

You know what'd be really cool?

Moving to some far away place,

Because I'm sorta sick of all of everyones bullshit.

when I say everyone I mean like two or three people

One of them might read this,

But whatever probably not

I'm not that important.

Not anymore

Whenever I ask what happened,

I say it's neither of our faults

but who am I kidding?

I didn't ditch for like a month

I didn't never talk to you

I didn't give up.

I just might one of these days,

And It will suck without me.

Or at least I hope it does,

So you know what it feels like

Because it does suck.

So whatever, I don't care

I must have been dreaming I guess,

But if I want these kind of dreams it's

Californication.

Now I know,

It's my time to make things right

And I can not say

If I'll make it through the night

Just to run from the day...

Watch the streets flood with blood from the

Self Righteous fools just like you.

I can't sit by while this happens anymore

so I walk through the door and close your eyes

never again to see the world for what it is.

Never again to watch the pain that fills us all

We walk under the fire

We shall never tire

for if we slept

you'd all be dead.

We walk the roads that no one takes

We fight the battles that are never one

I had it all but then threw it away

for that is the price which we pay.

new song; all I have right now

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