Enough UnderOath Quotes.

This sucks.

I hate everything that is going on.

I want this to be over

Or to start over...?

Everyone:

I

Do

Not.

Trust you.

Any of you

it's not your fault.

I haven't trusted anyone for years

I have built these Massive walls around myself.

and sadly, it has grown from one tiny wall to 50 10' thick steel plated.

And I have taken them down twice.

for the same person

and now..

they shall go back up

for I can't trust anyone for the simple fact that everything is kind of screwed up right now

So Sit tight Josh!

right.

I don't know if I can do

this

wait and see thing.

Besides;

You don't want me anyway..,

I am Pessimistic

Self doubting

Troubled beyond belief

Fucking Crazy

Unwanted

Angry

Hateful

And no one should want me around anyway

And how can I start to even Believe you?

I could trust you

I think I still can

but I mean this seems like a trick or a joke

just to fuck with me.

This is difficult

I really want there to be something

but the way we talk to each other

mhm

yeah

mhm

yeah

Makes me wonder if you even mean what you say?

or if I should keep trying

or maybe you're just leading me on

it wouldn't be the first time.

I know I probably shouldn't be talking

typing rather

but regardless

this is how I feel

and I don't know how else to say it.

It's not the way it's supposed to be, It's the way It is.

This time I was thinking about writing something that could help.

but If I don't feel helpful then why bother?

"All he want's is you"

Is still true

But I want to know what is going on

and I don't know if I'm looking at this the wrong way

I can guess how you feel

and you say stuff

but I don't know anything about what you are thinking

And It Scares Me.

Yes folks Josh is scared of something

otherwise I would never say it.

I would stop breathing before I gave up my pride.

But I want you as a friend.

and if there is something else that is more between us,

something better maybe

then that is great too

I'm loosing sight of what I really want I think,

I don't really know

both in bad moods makes for terrible thoughts

"maybe she doesn't want me"

"maybe they just want a break for like a week"

"maybe I'm not good enough"maybe I'm not good enough for her."

"I'm not."

I don't want you to tell me I'm not,

if you do you will ruin your idea of not saying too much.

But don't worry about me,

Tough as nails this one is.

Nothing can hurt him right?

right.....

So for now I say goodnight

And for tomorrow, I say we'll have to see.

Oh how the plot thickens

I think I scream because of the anger in me.

When I scream I put everything into it

All or nothing.

It lets me get everything out

And it works

As i flail around It calms me.

not as everything else does

I'm scared of throwing my self into the dark.

I'm scared the walls will rise again

I need not recognition but something of the sort.

I wish this was over with

so I could relax around you

my mind is moving the speed of sound when I talk to you

or even think.

I don't know why;

nothing has been said to make me think that...

but that is fair

and what's fair is fair

except the no headshot rule in dodgeball, that is ridiculous

You have a lot to think about

I have a lot to think about

Thinking is like dumb

I would rather go strait off emotions

but of course if I did thinks would be different

I wish they were.

Wishes don't true for me

never have

I although might not sound or look it;

Am human.

and that comes with all these feeling

Sometimes I would rather throw them away.

but this is important to me;

and I don't want to let go.

Good God Can you still get us home?

I hate this.

I hate not knowing.

I hate everything that is going on.

I do not hate you.

Today was weird like,

I felt like you already chose him

and surprisingly it hurt, bad

The worst pain of sadness I have felt in a long time

witch made me think about how I care about you so much

and how this "thing" has transformed from more than a thing

for me at least...

You might know what you will do and that is fine

either way I can deal,

I'm tougher than most.

But I fall harder than the rest.

Don't really blame me for not saying something,

It's hard to talk about things, I haven't in a long time

And Taking down these walls i have built around me,

They've been standing for so long that I need help pulling them down.

I don't know why I do thought

I am sorry for all of this,

because I am making what is hard harder

and I hate it.

I apologize.

These Roads We Tread Upon.

Hello Friends!

just kidding I probably don't like you as much as you think.

but you never know.

I probably should have gone into this with an idea,

It's kind of like Mitchell Davis

LIVELAVABLOG?

haha.

I'm told I am a freako

we'll you are wierd!

It's super hard to think about you.

On one hand it's just normal

On the other it's way different

But then again you never know

Witch sucks.

I hate not knowing things

I need to understand what is going on around me.

I can't decide weather to scream in a band first or drum

witchever comes first I suppose.

sounds good!

blah I'm effin' cold.

I am really sexy when I drum (ladies) 

hahaha sorry.

hey punk!

you're pretty.

Your Mom.

And You're The Savior.

This is like dumb.

when I say this I mean everything.

I don't like whats happening around me.

like school and junk I mean.

I amazingly hate school.

I have a gift!

its pretty much banging on plastic over wood.

BUT ITS LIKE MAD FUN.

"My Heart's dead it's way past beating."

or so I thought.

I feel about somebody.

I dont really know how I am supposed to feel about them.

But if its nothing like how I feel about them now, then fuck it

I think I would rather be confused then not feel the way I do

"I hear them talking but can't make out the words, speak up speak up."

This whole thing is a bit contradicted.

but whatever its cool.

Fuck Twilight.

yeah I said it

JUST KIDDING DON'T BE MAD IT'S A JOKE.

ha; Every girl that reads this will kick my ass.

Bring it.

I have no FUCKING clue what is really going on.

Oh no! the jig is up!

I have nothing else to say really.

I've been quite lately and it's kinda creepy.

well, I guess thats it

 Your Face.