It's not the way it's supposed to be, It's the way It is.

This time I was thinking about writing something that could help.

but If I don't feel helpful then why bother?

"All he want's is you"

Is still true

But I want to know what is going on

and I don't know if I'm looking at this the wrong way

I can guess how you feel

and you say stuff

but I don't know anything about what you are thinking

And It Scares Me.

Yes folks Josh is scared of something

otherwise I would never say it.

I would stop breathing before I gave up my pride.

But I want you as a friend.

and if there is something else that is more between us,

something better maybe

then that is great too

I'm loosing sight of what I really want I think,

I don't really know

both in bad moods makes for terrible thoughts

"maybe she doesn't want me"

"maybe they just want a break for like a week"

"maybe I'm not good enough"maybe I'm not good enough for her."

"I'm not."

I don't want you to tell me I'm not,

if you do you will ruin your idea of not saying too much.

But don't worry about me,

Tough as nails this one is.

Nothing can hurt him right?

right.....

So for now I say goodnight

And for tomorrow, I say we'll have to see.