I'm done

with your lies

Do Not tell me otherwise

I don't know you because I'm not allowed

You don't want me around and you should have just told me

I don't know what I'm doing right now

Might as well go crazy

right?

fuck everything

not because of you hurting me

I have and can deal with that

But doing my best to trust you again

Is why I feel like a fucking idiot

We will never sleep.

Because Sleep is for the Weak.

and I am not the weak at all

Go ahead,

Touch me I dare you

You can't hurt me

Nobody can

So stop it.

I need nothing from anyone.

I don't know how or what to say

I just need to stop feeling.

Because 90 emotions at a time is way too much.

I'm not going to be such a "protective ' best friend' "

Because I know you don't need me to be.

And I know it doesn't matter.

Because there is no way to be protective and also sit there

While you're treated like that.

A joke is a joke

If anyone knows that it's me.

But that's just un-fucking-needed.

So I guess I'm done.

Don't think I don't care...

You know I do.

I'm just not that important.

So that's it.

Part of a new song..

"Will we make it to the day?

It's almost over now

My friend it's just way to hard to say

Unlock my chains and tell me how..."

It's time to relax

Time for re-evaluation

A new perspective

The next page in my "book"

Not to feel sad or to be angry

But to not really feel for anyone

Not in a bad sense

In the sense of;

Not needing anyone

Which I think is a good thing for me

So do what you will

Because nobody can penetrate my armor.

And until there's a reason to leave it open

It won't be

Don't take this as a bad thing at all

For it's a revelation

A... start of something else

different, maybe

needed, probably

I'm cold on the inside;

And that works

Cause it's how I need to be

Because I get carried away

So now I won't

I hope things get better now

or easier.

either way

I got a secret, It's on the tip of my tongue and on the back of my lungs.

Time for bed.

Jeez today was useless

I feel as if whatever I do is pointless now

Cause even if I try things fall apart,

So why bother right?

Why try?

Well campers I asked myself the same question and

did not have an answer I even wanted to hear.

I need something in my life to keep me in check

In balance if that makes more sense

But why try right?

I wish a lot of things were different.

No. not that. get over it; I have.

sort of...

Anyway

I have decided it would be a great Idea to stop talking

Cause nobody listens anyway

And if I said what I really thought or really wanted to say

You would either be offended or be even more confused just like me

As for now it's like 11:30

And I'm tired.

So goodnight..

I'm looking forward to the "Are you okay?" in the morning.

Still you leave such a bitter taste in My mouth.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

That's how I feel all the time.

About all most everything.

Besides my drums.

Otherwise I'm pretty much clueless.

I always have the feeling nobody really wants to be around me

that's why I try to be funny most of the time

if I'm funny= maybe people will like me?

Girls: Hey;]

hahaha...sorry

Girls don't like me much either

EXCEPT THEY THINK I'M GORGEOUS.

but past that part I start to loose her.....eh-em:"them"

I don't know;

I'm kinda boring for the most part

really.

But I'm good at Xbox=]

Gamertag is: Fr0zenfear802

Cause I think I am frozen by the fear of being alone.

All the time I hate being by myself.

I know everyone with a sibling would disagree but

I would love a brother or sister.

not like young,

Like my age so they could know what I'm talking about

and they wouldn't have the option of leaving the conversation like some of you do.

but whatever;

life could be worse

....Right?

BreakDown.

I Hate.

I can't have anything go right for me can I?

I can't have anyone to stand next to me can I?

I won't need anything after all...

You think I didn't know how to feel before

Well let me tell you...

Now I am uncertain in my every move

For I "like" you..

But I feel as if this is a crime.

For You don't need me anymore

The Scape-Goat.

The Patsy.

I don't blame you at all though..

I hope you know that.

I just want to know how to feel.

I know you've made your choice

I know it hurts me to say I know you won't change your mind

But I can deal.

Because you know I can

Even if you say I shouldn't have to.

I can.

I don't need anything from you

short of not pushing me away;

I hopefully am still your friend

For I will not breakdown.

....Yeah there's more.

Feelings;

Are pointless.

If no one had feelings then everybody would have a pretty good life I would say

To those of you saying but you wouldn't be able to be happy, be sad, or stuff like that

well no one would know anyway so ha.

I would rather not have feelings therefore I'm not.

People are useless

they'll pick you out

then throw you away like a newspaper

I want to stop feeling all together

Because the sadness isn't worth it anymore

The suffering isn't worth it anymore

I just wish things were different

I just want things to work for me

For everyone that thinks I've opened up to you

all but one

I haven't

and I won't to anyone ever again

Thanks.

Now instead of not needing people altogether

I don't want anyone at all.

Because all I need is my drums and an ipod

I'm not asking you to go away

I'm asking for you to stop.

I just want sometime to not feel.

I am Legend.

I am the man with the outer coating of steel

the man who fears nothing

the man with nothing holding him back

the man who opened his heart.

the man who was crushed

the man who fell farther than the rest

the man who wants to wither away without ever saying goodbye

the man who has nothing to live for

the man with no more heart

for I am the man that is cold

heartless

reckless

pain-filled

the man that needs no one

the man that wanted one

the man the one never wanted

the man who hates being legend

the man who now has no reason to open up to anybody ever

the man that will keep it inside never to open the walls again

the man who needs a break from everything

the man who walks alone in this world

the man who shall put his poker face on

the man who had to put an end to this shit

the man who wants nothing

the man who has nothing

the man that walks with the damned to the pits of hell where he shall learn what pain actually feels like so that this will seem like candy.

For I am the man that has no heart.

I want to stop thinking about this

I want to know what is about to happen

But I think I do;

You are still deciding I'm told

But I know who you've chosen

It's sort of obvious

The one thing I ask is that he leaves me alone.

or at least makes fun of me behind my back

so I don't have to listen to it

I don't know what else to say

I'm really shaken up right now.

I'm sorry for bothering you.

Here's your holiday.

"if it's what he** want's and it's what she want's then why's there so much pain."

**he is interchangeable.

You better Pray for Plauges.

Hello there.

Well then I suppose it's time to blog and not sound depressed!

Yeah!

No but for real I don't have a bunch to complain about

Things are still ify with somebody

but you know it's not really an issue for me

there's no we so I don't have a reason to be all mehf about anything

which I guess is good

but at the same time..

nevermind.

haha; yeah I'm going to do that to you.

I have been going into drum-comas I guess you could say,

I'll be in my head but at the same time just playing something about whatever I'm thinking about It's been eye opening you could say.

I think about people and it shows in my playing

if I don't like the person it goes really fast and I hit really hard

others just a regular jam thing

and others I don't even think about at all when I play

Everything is so contradicting.

I don't care what you say; it is.

I wish that I could plan out everything to work just the way I want it to

but I can't

I wish I could let down these walls for everyone

but I can't

I wish that I could be as strong as I need to be all the time

And I will.

For I can take anything aside from a bullet.

And now the walls are up

and I'm on lockdown.

no one in;

no one out.

I need a fucking break from my own head

So I can release all this hate I have for things I shouldn't worry about

But I can't

For I'm the passionate

I'm the aggressive

I'm the willing

I'm the scared

I'm the brave

I'm the broken

But I can be fixed.